Recently I started a new job and I am loving it. So many green flags and not that many red flags. Its the first job I’ve had were I actually feel like I’m in the right position. I also work with a great team so that’ll help also. I’m really hoping that after training everything will finally fit and come together. Its funny because this is the first time I don’t feel stressed about my job and I’m enjoying the present. Not worrying about the future….
As for my health, I could do better. I recently figured out that I’ve let my soda habit get a bit out of control. I don’t know why but I really don’t like drinking just water. That is something I’ve struggled with all my life. I can’t help but to think my water consumption has played a part in my obesity. Well lack of water. I know I struggled with inflammation by eating high carbs and processed food but I also feel like I am someone who mistakes thirst for hunger.
Now I’m currently trying to clean up my apartment and get rid of majority of my things. I have too much for a single person. I have so much useless junk in my apartment it’s starting to annoy me. I’m hoping by cutting down on the junk it’ll make my life just a bit easier.
As for my eating, I’m thinking of going back to goal achieving. I don’t want to live a life where I just go to work and come home. I want to try to different things every night. I am a zombie when I get home, I change into comfy clothes and sit down to watch tv. I don’t want to do that everyday anymore. I’m okay with the tv playing in the background but I would like to work focusing my time and energy on more productive things. I get I use the down time as a coping mechanism but I’m not really coping when I’m not dealing with things.
Getting over my cleaning issue. I don’t know why but I absolutely hate cleaning all the time. Part of it is my adhd because I’m quite messy but some of it is I just don’t like doing it. I’ll clean then do something which will take it right back to messy. I know I should clean up after I’m done with something. I don’t really have certain spots for things so maybe my first step would to be make sure everything has it’s own spot.
As for exercising, I go through like cycles to were I’ll want to work out everyday to I go weeks without working out. It’s quite frustrating.
I’m trying to utilize my time more so I can have a more fulfilling life. I don’t want to live like a robot either. I really wish I could have a real transformation that stays. One day at a time.