My first time with Keto Flu

The past few days I have been following a strict keto diet. I’m going to be honest, it’s been a struggle. The withdrawals have gotten to me. I’ve had irritability, headache, muscle cramp, and even brain fog. It’s been awful. I hate it but I know it’s an electrolyte imbalance because last time I struggled with the imbalance beforehand. I’m hating the muscle cramps and aches. I even left to go the store late at night for some potassium because that seems to be the only mineral I don’t have in a supplement form.

The afternoon irritability has made driving home from work even more fun… I’m pretty sure it’ll be over by the weekend but man it sucks. Though one good thing, my stomach hasn’t been bloated. I’ve also been drinking a lot of water…like a lot for me. I just need to get through this week. I actually read something very entertaining that has helped both my post break up blues and my keto.

“Carbohydrates are like your body’s version of your first love. They provide so much comfort, sweetness, and easy energy that we spend most of our time with them. It feels so right, it feels like true love, but it is mostly lust. The kind of lust that increases our risk of diabetes, heart disease, and obesity. This is why breaking up with carbohydrates is a good idea for many people.

But — just like with any breakup — it is difficult at first. You crave them and yearn for them. It is so heart breaking — not because you needed them, but because you are so used to living with them.

This made me laugh at first because yes this describes my previous relationship and my relationship with food. It helped me put more perspective on my life. Hopefully, I can get over my keto flu. This has been the longest week. I tried to make some fat bombs but they did not turn out well. I bought some keto brownies for my sweet tooth. I also finally found a recipe to make cheese crisps. I am not working out for the next few days but I have been doing some stretches. I also think some of my irritability is from post break up blues. I’m ready to move on and I can tell I’m being impatient. I need to learn to focus on the moment more. One day at a time.

Keto 2000000th time?

I love the keto diet. I do, I always lose a lot of weight and my health is always better for it. Being low carb for me has tremendously helped my stomach issues. As I’m growing older the more sensitive my stomach is becoming. It’s quiet annoying but even my father has the same issues so I should expect the same food sensitivities as him. I’ve tried keto countless times, I always end up losing 20lbs then gain back about 10lbs. I need to stop doing that but recently I made a huge decision in my life. One that I think will help me stay consistent in weight loss. I do have to say my mental health has been improving even. I still struggle with anxiety every once in a while but I feel more equipped to handle it. I’ve improved my coping skills and I think that’s why I am getting better at sticking at keto. I am not going to give up and keto is my favorite diet.

Now, each time I do keto I do pay attention to were I struggle with. Overall I would say laziness but in the sense that I don’t want to cook everyday and that I give into cravings. Another thing I struggle with is eating food with people. So I’m doing keto again but as the quote states “insanity is doing the same thing over again and expecting different results,” I will be changing up how I do my keto. One, I hate keeping daily track of everything I eat down to the macros so I’ll probably keep up with my food journal which I have been using for the past two weeks. Except, I am just going to literally write the date and what I ate. That’s it. Then I bought an electrolyte mix to help with that and BHB pills. I also bought some fat bomb mix so I have something to help with cravings. I also have to remember that I’m not giving up foods, I am simply choosing to eat certain foods to get into ketosis and I want some fries every once in awhile then I can. I’m not going to drastic of forcing myself not to eat something. It’s hard to stay on keto when you want to just give into those easy convenient decisions that end up making you gain weight.

I am far from a perfect person, I’m actually lazy especially if something doesn’t stimulate my mind. But I actually have found some motivational tools (one of them is kind of mean) and I think this time I can make it pass two months.

There are two things I’m missing that would help me with keto…my why (a real hard cold reason why I want to lose weight) and rewards. I’m actually bad at rewarding myself, I’ve messed up that part of my brain by consuming certain foods whenever I want. Or it’s because I’m perfectionist that isn’t perfect majority of the time so I end up being hard on myself. I’m my own worst enemy *que the music.* What I want to happen and what will happen never ends up being the same thing. I’m trying to decide how to go about this in a psychology sense. Like tricking my mind sort of thing. Maybe if I wrote a letter to my future self?

I don’t know but I’m glad to be going back into the keto diet and watching for me to reach ketosis. Each time I do it I end up into ketosis pretty soon and it gets easier and easier. Maybe this time it’ll stick which gives me another great idea. I have so many great ideas, I just wish I was good at executing them better.

One day at a time and we shall see…

One of my biggest struggles with weight loss…

I’ve written so many blog posts on my struggles with weight loss. I have about a million at this point and some of which are completely true while others are excuses. But without a doubt I struggle the most with follow through or consistency. I give up too easily or I give in temptations too easily. Or there are some days I’m just lazy. I wouldn’t bet money on me losing money and maybe the lack of confidence is a key indicator. Though the times I have been successful especially when I hit 160lbs in college, each of those times I’ve been able to focus on myself. Basically I’m saying I didn’t have any drama going on and was able to follow through without negative people around me.

I’m a single woman, I wish I was in a serious relationship but I know I can’t get that until I start to take care of myself. With that in mind, I think by focusing on myself for a time period I’ll be able to lose weight. But it’s hard being on your own and alone. But I am hoping to lose weight again like I did in may. We shall see and I need to remember one day at a time.

Weight Loss with Supplements

*this is for personal use only, not to be used as an official documentation or references; please always speak with your provider before making any dietary or health related changes*

In 2019, I was diagnosed with subacute thyroiditis. Months before I had gained up to 50lbs and felt like I had the flu everyday. I would be so tired all the time. My neck was even slightly swollen yet my ultrasound did not show anything major going on. For the past two years I have been working towards finding the right numbers, I have yet to reach optimal thyroid levels. It’s quite frustrating. I personally think that if I could lose some of my weight and eat better then it would help my thyroid. I’ve been working on my mental health too.

Well my biggest issue with any diets is I trouble with sticking to them. I’m going to be real, I get lazy and give up. I know not to overeat and to be careful about what I eat but I still struggle with it. I do have to say I eat a lot better than many years before me but some of that is because my stomach struggles with a lot of foods now. My favorite diet was keto diet but the cooking everyday and cleaning for a single person was becoming too much work. It’s a constant battle for me, if only I was rich enough to have my own home chef. With that being said, I am trying to find something that will help me a bit more to be able to stick to any diet I follow. I really just need my appetite to decrease.

I looked more into trying Glucomannan (a dietary fiber found in shitake noodles), it is a fiber that you take when you eat before a meal that expands in your stomach during digestion so you feel more full. There is no current FDA studies to prove that it helps with weight loss but in theory it should help with fullness to help with overeating. Along with taking vitamin D to help with my thyroid.

I am trying another experiment. Keto BHB help my appetite and I’m hoping glucomannan help also. I will only be weighing myself twice a week (monday morning and friday morning). I’m hoping to see some progress. I’m currently starting a new job so when that get’s more steady schedule then I’ll work towards working out everyday again. I’ve been doing at least 2-3 miles walks every weekend.

I will adding the results when I have some. But from my research, the glucomannan is expected to cause 5.5lbs lost in eight weeks with no changes to diet or exercise. I’m looking forward to seeing some result good or bad.

Keeping up with life

Recently I started a new job and I am loving it. So many green flags and not that many red flags. Its the first job I’ve had were I actually feel like I’m in the right position. I also work with a great team so that’ll help also. I’m really hoping that after training everything will finally fit and come together. Its funny because this is the first time I don’t feel stressed about my job and I’m enjoying the present. Not worrying about the future….

As for my health, I could do better. I recently figured out that I’ve let my soda habit get a bit out of control. I don’t know why but I really don’t like drinking just water. That is something I’ve struggled with all my life. I can’t help but to think my water consumption has played a part in my obesity. Well lack of water. I know I struggled with inflammation by eating high carbs and processed food but I also feel like I am someone who mistakes thirst for hunger.

Now I’m currently trying to clean up my apartment and get rid of majority of my things. I have too much for a single person. I have so much useless junk in my apartment it’s starting to annoy me. I’m hoping by cutting down on the junk it’ll make my life just a bit easier.

As for my eating, I’m thinking of going back to goal achieving. I don’t want to live a life where I just go to work and come home. I want to try to different things every night. I am a zombie when I get home, I change into comfy clothes and sit down to watch tv. I don’t want to do that everyday anymore. I’m okay with the tv playing in the background but I would like to work focusing my time and energy on more productive things. I get I use the down time as a coping mechanism but I’m not really coping when I’m not dealing with things.

Getting over my cleaning issue. I don’t know why but I absolutely hate cleaning all the time. Part of it is my adhd because I’m quite messy but some of it is I just don’t like doing it. I’ll clean then do something which will take it right back to messy. I know I should clean up after I’m done with something. I don’t really have certain spots for things so maybe my first step would to be make sure everything has it’s own spot.

As for exercising, I go through like cycles to were I’ll want to work out everyday to I go weeks without working out. It’s quite frustrating.

I’m trying to utilize my time more so I can have a more fulfilling life. I don’t want to live like a robot either. I really wish I could have a real transformation that stays. One day at a time.

Trying to eat on a Budget – Keto lifestyle

I was currently watching the new season of MasterChef which I love that show. It’s such a great inspiration. I have been struggling lately with cooking and fell back into bad habits of eating out. Anyway, after watching MasterChef one of the contestants talked about eating on a budget of $40 a week. Which I thought wow, that’s really low but then I also thought wait I should be able to eat less too since I’m trying to lose weight. I also have been wanting a new car and a new laptop so it probably would be best if I tried to eat on a low budget also.

So, a light bulb lit up quickly, I am about to buy a new laptop it would be a good idea to cut back on extra expenses so I can get a laptop I want without worrying too much about the price. I am starting a new job in a week so I want to be able to focus all my time on learning and not worry about food that week so this week would be perfect for a trial run of eating on a low budget.

As I’m writing this prompt, I’m also cleaning up my kitchen so what better thing to first do then to go through my fridge and my pantry to find what I have. Then I’ll find some coupons and plan out some meals.

I will be sticking to keto but this time I need to watch my butter and my salt intake. All while increasing my water and my vegetables. My other goal is to cut back on proportions. Not sure if I need to eat a few meals throughout the day or intermittent fasting. I guess it determines how I feel.

Foods I plan on cooking – after going through my cabinets, fridge and coupons…I suck at sticking to meal plans so I’m curious to see how much of this I end up eating this week.


  • Keto Waffle egg bacon sandwich – going to pre-prep the waffle so I can make two sandwiches
  • Egg Cup Muffins – these only take about 10-12 minutes at 400F so I can literally put them in the oven while I get ready for work without much work


  • Deviled egg salad with spinach – I’m looking forward to this one and the spinach is to promote healthy blood pressure.
  • Leftovers if any


  • Cajun smothered sausage, onions, and green beans – easily can meal prep this one into two servings
  • Pesto chicken zucchini noodles – I already have the pesto and it needs to get used up


  • Almonds
  • Strawberries with monk fruit sugar
  • Celery with cream cheese
  • Cheese

My goal is to spend less than $75 on food during the week. I don’t really drink coffee, but I have a bit of soda issue going on right now. The dinners are two servings. The deviled egg salad should take up two lunches but some days I don’t eat lunch if I eat breakfast because I’m just not hungry. I don’t like forcing myself to eat if my body isn’t hungry. I’ve given up weighing myself because of my thyroid it is affecting my weight currently. I have almonds, garlic, and spinach to help with my blood pressure. I have a mixture of vegetables every day. At least 2 servings.

As for drinks, not sure what I’m going to do about that. I would like to only drink water but let me be realistic I’ll want a soda at least once or maybe even tea or coffee. I would like to try to make cheese crisps.

Grocery List for the week comes down to…

  • Garlic
  • Strawberries
  • Eggs
  • Heavy cream
  • Celery
  • Almonds
  • Chicken
  • Sausage
  • Onion
  • Spinach
  • Zucchini noodles
  • Cheese

As you can see, there isn’t that much I need to buy and I’m really hoping I eat up all the food I buy. I already have the bacon, mustard, and seasonings. I also have Himalayan salt, pickles, and cream cheese. I also have some coupons that I plan on using. Its cutting down my meals tremendously to eat less yet more filling food. Protein and vegetables while limited carbs. I am still staying away from gluten as I try not to eat it every day. I am also taking the Perfect Keto pills every day to help my appetite. I’m suspecting this to cost around $50-$75.

We shall see how well I am end up doing with all of these. I really hope I don’t cave into any cravings. Can’t wait to show everyone how this goes!

A friend or foe blog: New Chapter – Fall time

Starting this month, I am going to be doing some new accountability and creativity in my life. This will follow through into my blog. I am looking forward to this but also understand this is tentative. I have an idea but at the same time my life is going through a new transition in a sense so it may not work out the way I want it. Below are the things I want to do to my best ability. I am not making any promises but they are the goals I am working towards. Hopefully I can figure out the layout on my blog to make it look organized also.

Goals I have this fall (September – December)

  1. Hike weekly (backpacking trip at the end of November) this is something I’ve been wanting to do for years but now that I’m more financially stable and more confident I feel like its the best time to do it! Fingers crossed I meet some friends along the way.
  2. Saving money as always but I currently have a new job that I am being paid perfectly for me and my lifestyle. But I would like to save up money, eventually would like to attend a wellness retreat next week (when covid finally chills down)
  3. Losing weight as always but I want to get more serious with keto again. I want to work on my relationship with food.

Of course these are things I have to fit into my work schedule. I’m hoping this fall brings new opportunities and good people into my life. I want have fun this fall. I want to work on my own relationship with myself. Heal all wounds that prevent me from having the life I want. Unload some baggage.

As always I am working on one day at a time, one task at a time. It truly helps with my anxiety and when I get too caught up into life. I look forward to what I can achieve this fall and I look forward to sharing it with the world.

Broken Hearts

I’ve been a heartbroken lately. My life has had many highs and lows. I’ve become good at just living one day at a time. I don’t plan too far ahead as I’m not even sure how my life is going to be in a month. And I’m not saying that’s a bad thing I’ve just become able to handle life better than I think I ever have. I may live a lonely life yet I am not lonely. I do wish I had more friends or connections but I also know I’m not great at relationships in general. I’ll need the right people in my life. I will definitely be stepping out of my comfort zone soon just for right now I’m trying to breath.

My heart is broken because here I took a chance or a leap of faith on something rather someone. I spent time trying to get myself not to panic and be afraid. All that strength and powering through the unknown I ended up receiving poor undeserved treatment. For someone to cause unnecessary suffering for no real reason than the person not wanting to think things through. I will not go into details as it is still a fresh story, maybe one day I’ll write out that story. I am trying to stay level minded while allowing myself to feel hurt. For once in my life I am allowing myself to feel hurt. I am so proud of myself for this instead of hiding from it or being angry. I don’t know what I’m going to do. But for the first time in my life during this year I have learned how to know when to walk away from someone and move on. To not overreact instead be patient and wait and see. I just hope I don’t end up regretting it. I do need to do something different my life, I do agree I need more friends and try new things. The thing is I’m not there yet, I almost am though. And I don’t feel like my life has really started yet. Almost like I’m a late bloomer and my best years are yet to come.

I had my heartbroken and I’m trying to mend it. I am allowing myself to feel hurt and to sit with it. To cry it out, to flush it out of my system. I’m soothing myself but I know in a few days I will need to pick myself back up and get back at it. I will make sure it doesn’t last too long but right now I just don’t want to deal with it. I want to allow myself the time to feel it so it doesn’t bother me later. I don’t know where that leads to but all I know is I’m focused on the present. That’s life and maybe one day soon I’ll be thanking myself more. I am going to stand by my gut and sometimes I may be wrong but that’s okay because that’s life. If I made all the right choices I would live a boring life as life is trial and error.

20lbs in 2 months- KETO STYLE

Drum roll please….I have lost 20lbs in 2 months. I am so proud of myself. All the great things I’ve changed in my life have helped me tremendously. So where to start? Let me first say this, not all diets work the same for everyone. We all have our own schedules and issues that it’s hard to mimic someone else’s lifestyle. The one major thing I discovered is you have to find a way to get the healthy choices to fit into your life. Keep that mentality to take one day at a time. We constantly are surrounded by food, good and bad. It’s about being able to control yourself. I didn’t try to force myself to get up foods instead I focused on what I should be eating.

Keto was perfect for me. I already don’t like pizza, cakes, bread, or anything heavy on my stomach. I had already started to give up gluten since I noticed it was effecting my health. I also began to listen to my body. One bad habit of mine would be after work I would eat a large meal at night as a way to cope from the day. I also noticed I am someone who fills up my plate with a lot of food (even if I’m not hungry) and then I would feel guilty for wasting it so I ate it all. I have stopped doing that. I don’t need a 5 course meal everyday. It’s okay that you have a snack at dinner because you’re not that hungry. Or it’s okay to have just that vegetable and protein. I also have helped my body notice when I’m hungry or when I want food.

I still eat out and I still drink alcohol but I do both responsibility. I don’t need to stuff my face and feel miserable afterwards. I do have to say I look at food so differently than I ever have before. I think about what’s going in my body and if it’s going to upset it. I think about do I really need this?

Here’s some things that have changed for me all because of ketosis. Oh but just know after doing ketosis so much it’s so much easier to get back into it, I am able to cycle in and out now.

  1. I don’t eat as much when I increase my protein and fat. I am actually less hungry when I don’t eat too many carbs and have way less cravings. But I still get cravings and I try to listen to them. One example is sushi, if I’m craving sushi like a lot I’m going to get myself some sushi.
  2. My plate has gotten smaller. I have worked on proportion control way more now than ever. If I want something I don’t a huge scoop, start small and if I’m still hungry then I’ll go from there. But by time I eat I forget to get more anyway.

I am looking forward to losing some more weight and I hope that I can do so.

Been Feeling Frustrated.

Within the past weeks I would say almost everyday I have felt frustrated. Frustrated at being stuck at 18lbs lost, my job, my social life, and well life in general. I feel like I’m moving in life through mud with each step I take. I see people having it way easier than me while I can’t even catch a break. I don’t want life to be easy but I don’t want to be hard everyday. I try to stick to that motto of one day at a time but life has been testing me recently. I keep in mind I can’t control everything and that things happen. Right now though, I’m stuck in this funk of frustration.

Funk of frustration, that has a ring to it. Not saying my life is bad or that I’m taking things for granted. I am thankful for what I have, trust me I am. From where I stand I am lucky for what I have, its things that I am missing that are causing this. MORE, MORE give me more…no I’m kidding. Though some more money would help me out.

Maybe the frustration is a mask for insecurity. Maybe it’s to indicate that I am too comfortable and scared to reach out. I don’t know. Could mean a lot of reasons. I do feel this sense of pressure to turn my life around. I have a job, live on my own, take care of myself. Yet, I am alone and not in a job that I’m happy with. I wish I had more friends, real ones that don’t bring drama into my life but instead support and fun. And I wish I found that guy who would understand who I am.

“Look, I’m not the one with the problem, okay? It’s the world that seems to have a problem with ME! People take one look at me and go “Aargh! Help! Run! A big stupid ugly ogre!” They judge me before they even know me – that’s why I’m better off alone…”


I’m frustrated and alone trying to conquer the world. It can be quite heavy at times and sometimes I wish I had someone I could unpack the load to. Even if its just for a night. Sure, hobbies are great but they don’t love you back. Maybe I’m frustrated because while I’m bettering myself I have no one to share it with. No one to say ‘good job, I love you for you.” Attention from people is one thing but the attention from the right person is everything.

Part of me thinks it’s my subconscious trying to tell me something. Inside my mind and soul feels like it is better to be alone. It’s actually easier than being with the wrong people. How does one find the right people if you close yourself off?

I’m not sure how to get out of my funk of frustration. Maybe it shall pass here soon. I hope it does.

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