Thyroid

The past few months I haven’t been myself. I go to work, I come home, eat, and then sleep. That’s basically it and on the weekends I’m sleeping to recover. I was believing I was the problem well technically I am. I thought I was being lazy and just didn’t care enough. Turns out I have thyroid disease. I originally tested hyperthyroid but the last result showed hypothyroidism. Basically, I’m tired because my thyroid is working correctly. I thought gaining weight was because I was being lazy. It’s the one time I’m physically ill. But I’m really struggling to get through it. It’s a 12-18 month treatment. I started treatment thanksgiving week and man it’s been tough. I have to use all my energy for work. It’s rough. I’m taking a step back. But I think the inner perfectionist in me is screaming “just do it” but that seems to be messing me up. I get discouraged when I don’t achieve faster.

This is like slowing myself down. I need to take one step at a time. Change doesn’t happen over a day. It took a year to gain all this weight so it’ll take a year to lose all this weight. So I need to figure out what I want.

I want to be able to work then come home to eat but also clean or work on something or even play video games. Pretty much I want to be able to come home and not need to lay down. I want to be able to lose weight, I’m hoping to have my weight back down to 200lbs before the end of next year. I want to eat better, it’s hard but I’m getting older and the bad foods I enjoy are going to have to become treats every once in awhile situation.  Also want to get back into fitness, I miss working out. Work on my professional career. It takes every day to achieve this.

I think keeping track of my progress is important. It’s about doing it every day. Simple baby steps. Like make majority of the week a home cook meal, stick to one soda a day, drink more water, come home and do one task that requires to be walking around. Exercise strength training every night.  More steps every day, try to reach 5000 a day. (Even my step counts have drastically dropped, I used to do 10000 easily every day now I’m sitting at 3000 a day.) I honestly think my steps will show if I’m getting better. Maybe start with 100 steps a day. I’m not sure. I know I need to try to push myself but not too hard.

I figure something out, I know I want to do yoga again. I have an app to help me out but I’m shooting for a more active lifestyle, and weight loss. And after I feel better I should try dating again. I’m growing up. Maybe I need to get a planner myself. Bills and daily goals. I need something I need to achieve. Like a challenge. I’ll take one day at a time. I’ll make sure to help out my body more.