This past weekend I did a 89 hour fasting. I was starving. The thing about fasting that even after you're done you can't exactly go straight to normal eating. Some of the symptoms follow. I feel like I did a fairly good job breaking my fast, it only caused a 2-pound increase. The main symptom... Continue Reading →
The End of Unrequited Love
When I was 21 years old, I met a boy in class. We embarked on a roller coaster of emotions that would span over eight years—a cycle of ending things and becoming friends, on and off. I wish to share this story because I believe it holds a valuable lesson: not to sacrifice for someone... Continue Reading →
No Contact Rule
Recently, I had a friend of mine really upset me. It was the last straw for me. He tried to gaslight, disrespect me, and I caught him blatantly ignoring me. I've known this friend for over eight years. I've posted about him before. I've had issues like this every year for eight long years. I... Continue Reading →
Emotions, Moving On, Goals
I have this relationship in my life that I've known the guy for eight long years. I have tried everything to make things work between us but it has always felt like a losing battle. Ironically the other day, I was sitting and scrolling through TikTok. A video pops up talking about breadcrumbing and it... Continue Reading →
Things I’ve Learned About My Eating
So while I haven't been truly successful with weight loss there are so many things I have learned that I am proud of. What makes me hungry? I tend to get hungry a lot more easily when I drink soda, watch cooking shows when I haven't eaten much, I'm surrounded by good-smelling food, I'm bored... Continue Reading →
Calorie Counting yet again
I've been counting calories for the past week and it worked as it was supposed to! Wooo! Seriously, my average calorie intake is 1200 calories. I'm in shock because I haven't been hungry. I also am not restricting, I'm eating whatever I want but at the same time keeping it in calories. I have six... Continue Reading →
Broken Record
I've been trying to lose weight and nothing. I've been following a 1200-calorie diet to get used to eating and spending less on food. In 3 months I want to switch to keto at 1500 calories. I currently have delayed onset muscle soreness from working out 12 days in a row, it hurts to walk.... Continue Reading →
Shadow Work So Far…
For the past few weeks, I’ve been doing what’s called Shadow Work. I don’t know why people think it’s demonic but apparently, there are people that believe that. I feel like it’s just DBT on steroids. It’s just a form of therapy. It’s a great way of dealing with trauma and self-behavior that you don’t... Continue Reading →
Possible Date
I was supposed to go on a date today. The guy seemed okay. We messaged on Wednesday and set up the date. Then this morning my neck was killing me from texting him so much over the past few days. I can't start conversations through text because my neck is not meant for that. I... Continue Reading →
Improving Oneself for Love (with audio)
For the next few months, I want to take advantage of being truly single. I have a bad habit of always having a guy in my life that I’m pining over or having some sort of drama. It’s a distraction that prevents me from improving myself. I am seeking a more traditional style of relationship... Continue Reading →
a Friend or Foe 