I think I'm getting back to myself. And of course, I mean this in a good way. For the past year I just haven't felt like myself. At first I thought I just had depression but it wasn't the same as when I was in college and I didn't think much of it because I'm... Continue Reading →

The past few months I haven't been myself. I go to work, I come home, eat, and then sleep. That's basically it and on the weekends I'm sleeping to recover. I was believing I was the problem well technically I am. I thought I was being lazy and just didn't care enough. Turns out I... Continue Reading →

For years I've had this dream. Sometimes it'll come as like a flashback. My brain will suddenly think of it. It goes like this... I'm standing on a beach. To my right is a stretch of rocks with the water hitting harshly. The sky is grey, it doesn't feel warm but it feels eerie. To... Continue Reading →

The biggest problem in my life right now (put my health aside) is that I'm struggling with moving on. And I'm not pinpointing just one thing like a relationship but also a job. Most importantly...myself. What does that mean? We all change. When you think about it we’re all different people through our lives, and... Continue Reading →

The older I'm getting the more scared I am of the living. There's been so much failure and disappointment in my life it's hard to keep pushing through. I lack real support in my life. I don't have emotional support. I'm expected to handle everything on my own. I wish I had someone who loved... Continue Reading →

Lately, my life made me question if I'm enough. Days I feel like I am but then other days I feel like I haven't done much. I'm trying to live in the moment but it doesn't do me much good. I feel out of place 90% of the time. I work alone because it's easier... Continue Reading →

I feel as though I'm finally changing and growing up. Well, at least my subconscious is. I had a dream last that showed me the aftermath of overreacting. And I feel pretty great about this. Here's the biggest problem in my life. I know what my problems are and I know how to solve but... Continue Reading →

I have always been a messy person. I could spend a whole day cleaning and then after an hour, it'll be a mess again. I'm just a naturally messy person. At the same time, I'm a perfectionist meaning that I'm a messy person and I don't like it. That's where I am at right now.... Continue Reading →

I'm writing to feel better. I put this out publicly because it feels more real than if I wrote it in a journal. I've struggled with life but my life isn't bad. I'm not sure where I want to go in life. I know what I want generally but I'm not sure what I want... Continue Reading →